Choosing Unusual Love: My Firm Decision for Us

I can’t force you. I can only inspire you. I can’t apply physical force on you. I can only touch your face and caress your face. I can’t drag and take your hand by force, I can only wait for you until I fall asleep in the car.

I love you and I will always love you if you let me. I care for you and won’t stop caring for you unless you walk away in front of me.

I’m here laying down all my cards on you. I’ve told you several times that I’ve already chosen you and that’s my firm decision. But if you tell me, you can’t be with me anymore and it’s the end between the two of us and that’s your firm decision, then in spite of the severe pain I must carry, there’s no choice for me but to accept it.

If that happens. I will then tread the path where I must commence my search of someone like you, more or less, as long as I find your memory in her… Your amusing laugher, your stare that melts my heart, your sudden embraces just to lift me up, your words of concern if I have already eaten, and of course, the way you passionately kiss me while we intensely make love as you’re on top….

I asked you once and for all if you will continue to hold on even in the midst of our troubled situation, and you nodded and gave your muffled yes. I wanted you to say it clearly and explicitly, but you’d rather say it that way while you suddenly embraced me lovingly… Thats all I wanted. You don’t have to say more. You don’t have to say any further.

The cocks started to crow. The dawn began to shed slowly its light. Your neighbors started to come out from their houses. We were almost 4 hours in the car, talking, mending and most of all, assuring each other that we go on and never let go of this unusual priceless love we discovered along the way.