I remain in love you.

I think of you all the time. I want to message you every day but I guess I might disturb you.

I want to ask a lot of questions. I want to express what I think and feel for you every time something is persisting in my head.

I guess I have to control myself. I don’t want you to think that I’m getting obsessed of you. In fact, I am but I’m trying to control myself.

I guess it’s not so much of controlling myself but it’s more of not bothering you.

I want you to have space. I want to respect your time. I want you to enjoy with your friends without thinking of me.

I want you to live your life day by day as if I don’t exist in your world.

Although deep in my heart, I want you to think of me all the time. I want you to live for me. I want you that you treat me a big part of your life but then again, I know, it’s not good for you. So even if it pains me, I want you to think of me only when you want to think of me. I want you to message me only when you want to communicate with me. I want you to see me only if you agree. In other words, please don’t be forced of doing things just for me.

Yes, I want your love, your great and deep love but only if it comes with your whole free will and only if it comes with your meaningful happiness.

What I’m saying is love me if you really love me with joy and meaning. Love me if it makes your life colorful and happy because that’s what life is supposed to be. Without happiness, what’s the use of continuing to live this life? Without meaning, without discovering a good reason to live this life, what’s the use of this life after all? Life’s purpose is all about finding and living a meaningful existence. That meaningful existence is defined by colors which is opposed to monotony. That meaningful existence is defined by happiness which is opposed to emptiness and sadness. Happiness may be fleeting but it comes back. It may go away but it returns because happiness is always there. It’s never gone. It’s just sometimes not appreciated.

Whatever I say here, I remain in love you. I will continue to love you because you’re giving me a good meaningful reason of my existence.